This might be my last chance So maybe I should take it I just hope you're listening To everything I'm saying I miss the long drives, the car rides The bad fights, the good times The way you make me feel Will never leave my mind Think of you later in my empty room Where I, I will fall asleep alone Think of you later in my empty room Where I, I will fall asleep alone
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Written on: Thursday, February 01, 2007 Time: 1:34 PM
Why is it always me?
Why must things all happen at the same time? I wouldn't mind if they're good stuff but sadly, they're not. Thought I could do footdrill finally and what happened? At this point of time, my knee just had to give me problems again. And know, it's not only the knee. What's happening? Then my body temperature is mad. My hands are so super cold and yet my face is so super hot. Am I having a cold or a fever?
Okay, it's not like I want this to happen and make everyone miserable right. Maybe it was really my very own fault right the beginning to talk and mention about it. Charis said it was not wrong to mention about it but it's like, why did things turn out this way? Who's going to give me an answer? Or maybe, I should be the one giving myself a good answer. I owe her an explanation, I owe myself an explanation, I owe everyone an explanation. I know you guys don't want to see things like this but then, it's really not easy. Not that I wanna be mean and evil but I really can't bring myself to laugh and smile like before. It's not cos of you, but it seems like I've been faking a smile all along when I'm with others too. I want things to go back to normal as well, but how? I started it first, so maybe I should be the one taking the first step? I'm dumb, will someone teach me how? It feels like I'm all alone here, without anyone. Okay, my keyboard is getting wet, I don't wish to continue.
Written on: Thursday, February 01, 2007 Time: 1:34 PM
Why is it always me?
Why must things all happen at the same time? I wouldn't mind if they're good stuff but sadly, they're not. Thought I could do footdrill finally and what happened? At this point of time, my knee just had to give me problems again. And know, it's not only the knee. What's happening? Then my body temperature is mad. My hands are so super cold and yet my face is so super hot. Am I having a cold or a fever?
Okay, it's not like I want this to happen and make everyone miserable right. Maybe it was really my very own fault right the beginning to talk and mention about it. Charis said it was not wrong to mention about it but it's like, why did things turn out this way? Who's going to give me an answer? Or maybe, I should be the one giving myself a good answer. I owe her an explanation, I owe myself an explanation, I owe everyone an explanation. I know you guys don't want to see things like this but then, it's really not easy. Not that I wanna be mean and evil but I really can't bring myself to laugh and smile like before. It's not cos of you, but it seems like I've been faking a smile all along when I'm with others too. I want things to go back to normal as well, but how? I started it first, so maybe I should be the one taking the first step? I'm dumb, will someone teach me how? It feels like I'm all alone here, without anyone. Okay, my keyboard is getting wet, I don't wish to continue.
